I finally resolve it all in my mind
(as much as one can
grasp the slippery past).
Can finally let you go —
amazed to realise how tightly,
all these years, I’ve clung.
I tell you in thought: ‘You gave me
everything you could, and then some!
You owe me nothing.’
It feels like
an unfamiliar self
who finally falls asleep.
Then I dream a ballroom
(where we never met in life).
Among the dancing couples,
finally I am in your arms.
Together, we waltz and waltz
round and round and round …
We are free
we are safe
we are smiling.
Which was followed some hours later by this realisation.