Finally

I finally resolve it all in my mind

(as much as one can

grasp the slippery past).

Can finally let you go —

amazed to realise how tightly,

all these years, I’ve clung.

I tell you in thought: ‘You gave me 

everything you could, and then some!

You owe me nothing.’

It feels like

an unfamiliar self

who finally falls asleep.

Then I dream a ballroom

(where we never met in life).

Among the dancing couples,

finally I am in your arms.

Together, we waltz and waltz

round and round and round …

We are free

we are safe

we are smiling. 

Which was followed some hours later by this realisation.