To me it came as a surprise
when they surrounded me
and took me to the place arranged,
and then she pounded me.
I didn’t know what I had done.
My classmates clearly knew,
and clearly thought the thing she did
was honourable to do.
She stood there waiting, poised and grim.
Someone removed my coat
and then stepped back. I gaped at her.
She punched me in the throat.
I didn’t see it coming, no.
Did not retaliate.
She got my larynx, took my breath.
My voice came back too late.
She met my silence with contempt,
as if I had intent.
They asked her, ‘Are you satisfied?’
‘I am,’ she said, and went.
‘Why didn’t you fight back?’ they asked.
I choked and coughed, then spoke.
‘What was that about? It hurt!’
They laughed. ‘That little poke?’
She never spoke to me again.
My crime was not explained.
I kept myself to myself
the few months that remained.
I was new there, from afar.
So was I just uncool?
I learned I was a stranger, in
my final year of school.
Prompt: to write in ballad style, telling a story – perhaps of a crime or tragedy. I didn't want to go that dark; instead, memory dredged up this mysterious unpleasantness .
Bullying is so horrible, Rosemary. I remember it well, especially the bully as ‘poised and grim’.
ReplyDeleteI don't think any of them even saw it as bullying. The girl concerned wasn't normally a bully, and had been my friend. I had apparently caused her great offence, or she thought I had, to the point where she felt justified in seeking revenge, or (I guess) punishment.
DeleteThe feelings of confusion and hurt really came through. This poem resonated for me.
ReplyDeleteIt was surprisingly easy to write; evidently has been sitting there in my subconscious all the time.
DeleteI'm so sorry this happened to you, Rosemary. I was bullied in high school as well. It's the worst when a former friend turns on you.
ReplyDeleteOh, I'm sorry it happened to you too. I guess we just have to treat it as a learning.
Delete"I learned I was a stranger…" - This unfolded me, Rosemary. Quietly and Searingly. It captures that moment we all meet the world’s unspoken rules and realize we were never given the script.
ReplyDeleteYes, exactly.
Deleteah. sad and mystifying and a bit terrifying ~
ReplyDeleteYes all of that. But long ago.
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