How quietly we come to the end — do we? —
of a karmic connection through many lives.
This time, we loved each other: with the body briefly,
with mind and heart and soul in the years since.
But now he wants to build monuments, fight battles …
would do me honour as long as I supported.
He carries the blood of Cherokee warriors
and Slavic shamans. He resonates with Norse deities
and Viking axes. I follow a different path.
The heritage, genetic or magical (mine Celtic / Hindu,
while I’m drawn to Egyptian and Graeco-Roman gods)
probably doesn’t matter. It’s where we choose to go
this time around which shapes us; what we choose to do.
Even when we performed the Rite, he was after power;
I did it for lust. But I loved him too, not for the wild man,
the joker, the adventurer, but for a core of tenderness
I saw within, and for his truth-telling. I don’t know why
he came to love me too, but he did. Perhaps for the same.
‘That’s your teacher,’ his angels told him, the moment
when he first saw me. ‘Don’t let him get the upper hand,’
mine said two weeks earlier, predicting our meeting
when we were still strangers, unaware of each other.
I didn’t forget the advice. Perhaps he did. Now
he thinks I have nothing more to teach him. He wants
to instruct me. ‘You’ll be looking for me,’ he says, ‘When
they come at you in that final battle.’ ‘Dear one,’ I reply,
‘do you not know, Love is the greatest weapon?’
We are texting from different continents. ‘My circle,’
he says, ‘collapses if you walk away.’ I tell him I cannot stay,
will not, to be seen as a party to violence, and add:
‘Like a cat, I usually go my own way.’ He says: ‘Goodbye.’
Sharing this one, on 29 November 2024, with Friday Writings #155 at Poets and Storytellers United.
A complex and beautifully written story - I like that you ended with a grumpy cat as well - links in with the photo! You left me intrigued to learn more about the two of 'you' - Jae
ReplyDeleteThank you. Perhaps I'll write the whole story one day. (It's not actually secret, just complex.)
DeleteThis is so intense... I think it is amazing to confess that your circle will collapse if the other person walks away...and even more amazing to still walk away for good reasons. You've written this so well..it had me hooked from the first line.
ReplyDeleteThanks, I'm glad to know it works so well.
DeleteThere is an air of ancient battles to this love story until the word "texting" appears to bring it back to modern times. Perhaps he should have known by now that cats most often do stray. :)
ReplyDeleteAh well, he was more of a dog person. (Though in my experience cats rarely stray; but it's true they can't be herded.)
DeleteIt's a beautiful thought that "‘My circle... collapses if you walk away.’ It sounds so loving, yet it's not true. He'll be fine. Sometimes those love poems and words are manipulation. It does sound so beautiful though!
ReplyDeleteI read it as an attempt at emotional blackmail, but perhaps I was judging harshly. The circle was a mystery school; I don't know whether it continued or did 'collapse'.
DeleteThis is all very cryptic. I'm a simple gal so it all would be beyond me anyway:)
ReplyDeleteOh dear, sorry about that. I never mean to be obscure. This piece can in fact be taken very literally — but perhaps it does beg a few questions.
DeleteRosemary, this is quite the story/poem and I was intrigued from the first few lines thru the last. This line in particular grabbed me and would not let go: "It’s where we choose to go this time around which shapes us; what we choose to do."
ReplyDeleteps, I had to delete the limerick. Sister not thrilled. They had one of the toughest losses in the history of their Michigan rivalry yesterday. And they take their football seriously. [thankfully I am not as rabid]
I'm glad you found it readable, Helen.
DeleteI can see why you deleted your limeriick! I'll check out the replacement.
I'm bemused by his heritage...an American in Australia?
ReplyDeleteI was visiting America when we first connected. After that we kept in touch by phone, text, MySpace and then facebook. (He has never visited Australia.) We very quickly went from romance to friendship. But there was a strong karmic connection (trust me, there are lots of details to confirm that) so it has been a fated friendship you might say, not more important than others but with that extra dimension.
DeleteI am so intrigued by this, Rosemary! Texting from different continents. I like the grumpy cat at the end.
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