Always

 

They think it’s long ago and far away,

those who read what I wrote of you

forty years ago and more. It’s an old story

yes, but nothing of it has faded. 

‘Love,’ you wrote, ‘as long as you’re still 

the person you are today.’  I’m not, of course,

but dying fixed you in time. You are always, 

now, the person you were then. So it’s true

what I had written (first) to you: ‘Love always.’

That’s OK. I’m glad to hold you in my heart 

for eternity — or as long as I shall live …

The night around me grows very still.

It is past the midnight hour. 

How many dear ghosts walk?

Possession and Loss

I think of that painting my mother had:

the handsome though saturnine aristocrat.

He looked like the humourless brother

of The Laughing Cavalier. Yet I liked it. 

And I wish I had claimed it after she died,

but I wasn’t thinking of such things then.

It is long lost now, along with all her other 

dispersed or abandoned possessions.

I see him so clearly still, in his place

on the wall of a dear house (also long gone)

in his fancy hat with the swirling brim,

and the lustrous dark green coat-sleeves.

I remember, too, a card I cherished

for its image of the Green Woman:

wrinkled and wise, in front of trees,

like the vision of her I’d once had.

A student begged to borrow it, to copy. 

I was reluctant, but she promised 

to return it very soon. She never did. 

She moved  away, leaving no address.

Remembering, I see again, or still, 

the image of that nut-brown, smiling face,

the kindly, knowing eyes. I feel again

the deep recognition between us.

So many decades later, the clarity

with which these faces return to mind

tells me the pictures need not be mourned.

They could never truly be lost or stolen.

Written for Friday Writings #154: Opposite Concepts at Poets and Storytellers United.

What Delights Me

 

Turning 85, as I am doing now,

causes me not only delight, but

a probably quite unjustified pride.

After all, I have rarely given myself 

enough exercise or sleep. Further,

I’ve been overweight for decades.

So it’s all down to luck, and genes.

Thank you, long-lived ancestors —

albeit I note, with yet more pride,

I’ve now outlived you all (all I know).

But being still alive delights me, also,

for many other reasons. Life itself, despite 

its many ills and trials, is a source of joy. 

There are still roses growing, willows

by streams, and river red gums too,

and hoop pines piercing the high sky.

There are sunsets, there are clouds

that look like angels, and mountains

which dent the horizon with bending edges

resembling resting warriors, or dragons.

There are friends, and memories of past

friends, including many cats and dogs. 

Grievous loss — yet they are not lost.

There are books and paintings and music,

movies and laughter, my sons well grown …

I am blessed. I am richly blessed. I know it.

My response to my own prompt for Friday Writings #153 at Poets and Storytellers United. (Written 11 Nov. '24, the day before my 85th birthday.)